hannibalv | (no subject) (Reply)

March 8, 2002

I have a lot to tell you about today.

Well, not a lot, but what did happen was interesting-specifically, I met up with someone I hadn't seen in at least six years and, along with one other person, we went a-visiting back to our mutual high school. We saw two teachers who are retiring this year, and another one who is magnificent in her immutability. It was good.

And I bought comics. Woo.

I should tell you more about all of these things.

But I won't.

Because all I really want to do right now is injure myself. I've got a piece of a broken CD with a nice edge on it.

I don't even know why I want to do this. Well, listening to news of everything that has happened with my successful, fulfilled classmates was part of it.

I'm just so angry at myself right now. I want to hurt myself, it's just that simple. I want to punish myself for the failure I perceive myself to be.

I owe things to people. I have no idea if I'll be able to provide what I agreed to.

Because I'm pathetic and blocked and can't really string a sentence together that anyone who doesn't know me would want to read.

I will not hurt myself. I have control.
I will not hurt myself. I have control.
I will not hurt myself. I have controlright?

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